Ep#004

[Natalie White]

Operation Save My Ass is now in effect.

[Natalie White]

Okay, so what should I do? Gosh, I'm so confused right now. I wish I wouldn't have been out of town this past weekend. I missed so much and it is awful! Now I feel like I'm on the outs and I wasn't even here to defend myself! I'm kinda just putting my head down and keeping my mouth shut at this point while Parv digs her own grave. The Heroes are falling apart and it is awful that all I can do is watch and see it happen.

I thought I could trust Kel. I really did. I wanted to go to the end with him because I knew Parv was too big of a threat. But he turned on me like 24 hours after he aligned with me. It's ridiculous. He can't be trusted, and I definitely am ready for him to go! I think my best bet is to target him at this point. And apparently Parv and some Villains are trying to get me a hidden immunity idol. Thank goodness. I could use one that's for sure! But my karma has been fluctuating so there are definitely people trying to stop me from getting an idol as well.

Kel sat me out of the challenge without any discussion. I don't know why. I'd like to think it was because he thought I was still out of town, but I was really hoping to participate because I have a busy few weeks ahead of me, and I might have to sit out of the next challenge or something. Besides, I want to be able to fight for immunity since I could very well be the next to go!

I talked to Gary last night and pretty much apologized for voting for him and kinda blamed it on me not being there. I was under the impression it was a tribal decision to vote out Gary, but apparently it wasn't. And then it completely split our tribe. Hopefully I can use my absence as a reason to keep me. I am still 100% loyal to the Heroes. I don't want a Villain to win. So hopefully people can trust me and keep me on this tribe because I am definitely not done with this game!

[Hosty Jill]

I hope you can manage girl! Pull through! I believe in you! :]

[Natalie White]

Thanks.

[Natalie White]

Ugh. Things have definitely been rocky. Elisabeth has been ignoring my IMs completely. Bitch. I've talked to Ibrehem and he just acted oblivious. As usual, he is probably being TOLD what to do. Whatever. Parv is digging her own grave, so I am just letting her in hopes that they vote out Parvati and then Kel. I don't know. People probably realize I got my half of the idol. So hopefully they think I don't have a villain that will give me a second half.

[Natalie White]

If I vote with everyone against Parvati, there is a good chance I would be next. I've heard they might vote for Ibrehem before me, but I don't know if that is true or not. So I need to make a move. Even if I could survive this round, I'd be gone the next time we go to Tribal Council. I didn't come here to play that way!

Parv is obviously willing to do whatever she has to in order to stick around. Ibrehem and Kelly seem willing to flip, and I've been talking to them and they might want to pick something. So that is 4/9. If we could get one more person, we could really change this game around. I'm not going down without a fight. I didn't join this game to just be voted out this early!

[Natalie White]

This is a really screwed up round. It really is. I'm so confused, and i don't know what to do. But basically, he is a plan I have set into motion. Originally, I was gonna just try to grab Ib, Kelly, and Chicken with me and Parv and change up this game. However, Chicken was too indecisive. Besides, he has been the swing before and screwed it up, so I don't really trust him. But Kelly and Ib were really into the idea.

So, basically I am going to try to get half of the idol from Steph. Then give the idol to Parv to use. Everyone is voting for her. It's no secret. But if I can save her with an idol, then me, Ib, Kelly, and Parv could cause a tie at the next tribal council against Gary. He would go because of past votes.

I'm not a sitting duck. My best bet at making it far in this game is if I step up and try to make a move now. Otherwise, I'm only screwing over myself.

[Natalie White]

Now, I must await the results...I have a bad feeling that they split the vote for me and I will end up going because Kelly wanted to still vote for Parv for whatever reason. Oh well...at least I'll go out fighting.